You make us lose more by making me miserable and turning me .. (OnlyFans)

You make us lose more by making me miserable and turning me into someone I don’t even recognize. You have everything to gain by making any effort and making me feel beautiful and important. But you won’t. It drives me insane. I don’t want to be angry and insane every other night anymore. You’d have to be historically stupid to not see how much I could achieve and change our life. I can’t trust you. Go to you. Rely on you. Talk to you. Nothing. The most I will ever get is you getting water from costco or a gallon of gas in my car that I pay for. This is stupid and I’m stupid for even giving you a chance. I don’t want to be with someone this stupid, heartless and worthless. 

I will never understand why you won’t help me but I just don’t even care or want you around anymore. 

I hope you’re happy with the effects of your actions. 

I don’t want to be or live like this anymore. 

I don’t want to wait for you to be good for me anymore. 

I need more and better than this. No matter how many times I tell you I need you to help and contribute. You won’t. Then you throw extra straws for my cameltoe to carry and I don’t want to keep going off the deep end anymore. You fucking suck. You suck at sex. You suck at being a lover. You literally refuse to do listen to me and it’s just extra fighting and misery for me while you carry no mental load. I just hate your guts at this point and it’s so hard for me to get turned on anymore when you keep me this miserable. I don’t want to give you any more of my youth. Please keep being a loser and just stay away from me.