I got some questions about my like for girls. The most aske.. (OnlyFans)

I got some questions about my like for girls.  The most asked curiosity is am I gay but doing guys for money.  Absolutely not.  I like guys more, probably 60/40, maybe 70/30.  Don't get me wrong; there is a definite chance I might leave you for a girl.  I didn't really decide I liked girls later in life.  I took some serious crap early on.  Before I could drive, I had a beautiful friend, and we were sitting together alone on her back porch, and she grabbed my hand and held it.  I took that the wrong way and kissed her.  She blabbed about it, and before I knew it, I was that girl.  I got past it, it limited the girls who would be friends with me, but the guys were fine with it.  I had plenty of dates.  Yes, I did find another chick back then, and we figured out how to be proper lesbians together.  I wasn't attracted to her, but it was slim pickings back then.   Being gay wasn't cool...at all.  I feel like I would have scored quite a bit gay wise if I was in today's environment.   But, no such luck.  I still dated guys, and I did wonderful and weird things to their dicks, and though they would get freaked out once in a while, they couldn't help but keep cumming back.

When I say guys freaked out, I'm saying I was probably way to kinky for guys back then.  I remember the first time I swallowed an entire ejaculation of sperm.  Well, it was the first mouthful of cum I ever got and he freaked.  He thought it was gross.  I couldn't help myself.  The cum flipped a switch in me.  I wanted to do it again right then and there.  I had my first orgasm with a guy by simply swallowing his cum.  It was all very, very good for me, but he left, rattled, confused, whatever.  Several hours later, he called me and wanted to come back over.  I already made plans with another guy.  I wanted to do it again, and I did, just with a different guy.  Same results, I was in love with making guys ejaculate in my mouth and drinking it down.  They made it through the part of dumping cum down my throat, but something must change in guys' heads after they cum.  Suddenly things are not quite so hot.  Give it a few hours, and they all want more.  All I know is I had great times.  I wish I could still cum from swallowing, but I can't.  It still is a massive turn-on.  I love the feel of it, it's hot, silky, a bit thick and slimy, but there is a taste to it that drives me insane.  Where am I going with this?  Fuck I am way off base, getting myself all worked up.  Girls, that's where I was at.  I can't get those special things a penis brings to the table from girls.  I love spending hours licking their bodies, making them cum, feeling their tongue licking me.  It's amazing.  But, it's not a hard cock.  There is nothing in the world that compares to just holding a dick, feeling it grow.  It has it's own heartbeat, it jerks around, it gets steely hard with just a touch of spongy give.  Penis envy.  I definitely have penis envy.  I want one so bad.  Then an incredible chick with a body to die for smiles at me, and all I can think of is devouring her box.  Man, I am a fucked up individual or what?  There is no help for me, and I'm glad.  I like being confused sexually.  I don't just like it, I love it.   Hell, it's been a life long thing for me!  Man am I rambling nonsense or what.  Fuck it, what else did you really have to do? 

Catch you all later!

Love ya

Brooke