What is up, everyone? Hopefully cocks are up, and balls are.. (OnlyFans)

What is up, everyone?  Hopefully cocks are up, and balls are hanging low.  Wait.  Why do I want my balls hanging low?  Well, because I have always had this massively stupid theory that if they are hanging down low, it's because they are so full that gravity is working on them hard.  I know, probably not the case but just let me have this one.

I enjoyed that video yesterday.  The cameraman was pretty novice about the whole thing, and he kept rubbing himself.  It's funny how any self-awareness goes out the window when you get turned on.  I'm not saying this in a bad way.  I get all sorts of goofy when I get turned on, and my fuck faces are listed in the dictionary under "What the fuck?"  Who is the cameraman?  He is a Tinder date that went wrong.  Nice guy, though, but I'm not fucking him again. He is absolutely awful at it.  Plus, he altered his photos to enlarge his cock.  His dick went magically from 8 plus inches to a reality of 4 or so inches.  He must have gotten hit with a dick shrink ray the night before.  So he is now pushed off to the friend with zero benefits portion of my life.  I'm okay with that as long as he is, and I have been very upfront with him about his standing in my little world.  But he is a very nice guy and fun to be around.  I know he thinks I'll give in sooner or later and let him breed me again, but the reality of it is that the days of his cock inside me are over.  It's not the size. It's the deception, and that is somewhat insulting in several ways.  First, he may have thought I was dumb enough that I wouldn't notice.  Second, he believes that I picked him on his dick.  Which I kind of did, but that was an added bonus.  He is good-looking, and his body rocks.  That's what caught me.  Had he sent me the 4-inch pic instead of the altered one, I still would have fucked him.  I still wouldn't see him again because he did suck royally in the sack.  I don't have time to teach him how to fuck. He's too old to be taught.  I'll teach a 21 yr old, but I am not teaching a 30 yr old.  Anyway, my point here is I don't mind that he rubbed himself.  I like that shit.  It is enjoyable to see a man get an erection because of me.  It fascinates me that I can exert that control over a man.

Back to the video.  After I kicked the cameraman out for the day hard-on and all, I waited for my boyfriend to come home, and we fucked.  I left the dildo out and asked him if he thought he could compete with that.  He tried his best.  While we were fucking I told him that I couldn't feel him and was getting bored.  I let him know in no uncertain terms that he was vastly inferior to a piece of plastic.  He got frustrated when I told him I always thought his dick was bigger than 3 inches because that's what it felt like.  Frustrated but turned on because he started to cum, I pushed him out of me and made him cum in his hand.  He filled his hand up with nut.  I mean, filled it up.  I told him that if he wanted me to cum, he should drink his nut and lick his hand clean.  He wouldn't do it.  No matter how hard I pushed him, he wouldn't do it.  I fingered myself while he was deciding, and I probably would have cum if he did it.  But he didn't.

Two hours later, when I was by myself and watching the video of me and my plastic toy, I sent myself into orbit with a brain-melting orgasm.  I shit you not, sometimes the best cums are all by myself.  I look forward to the ones I know are going to damn near kill me.  I will purposely not cum when I'm having sex to make it even more intense when I get my alone time on.  To answer the question, do I fake an orgasm when I purposely avoid cumming?  Never.  I'll tell you what I'm doing, and it makes some people mad.  I don't know why.  They are the ones who are giving me the orgasm whether they are there or not.  They should be proud of themselves.  They are the ones who put me in a sexual situation where I know I will have a deadly intense cum.  If it weren't for them, I would miss out on that cum.  That's enough.  I have laid the foundation for proof that I am one whacked individual.  So catch you all later today!