I feel like the colder and darker it gets, the more I’m look.. (OnlyFans)

I feel like the colder and darker it gets, the more I’m looking for external things to keep my soul warm. it’s very weird going from feeling my very best all summer to...this? like I had a taste of what it was like to live without depression and it was fucking amazing and now it’s back. I can’t know good without bad though!