**Last Nights Celebration** ***a blog*** ___________________.. (OnlyFans)

**Last Nights Celebration** ***a blog***
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Last night was interesting… it was both fun and a mess 😂 I feel extremely fortunate though that my chatroom is such a safe place for me to be a mess. 

I woke up feeling like shit

I really had a great time in my chatroom!! We partied, ate cupcakes and I got to act all slutty in an unfiltered and intimate space

But that doesn’t change that I woke up feeling like shit.

To sum things up… I tweeted this:

*I broke up with alcohol a long time ago and we came to a mutual understanding that it would be an occasional thing

Just a hook-up here and there

Maybe a drink or two when having a nice dinner. You know, like a quickie?

Today I woke after drinking last night and I feel awful

No surprise, we all know what it’s like to wake up after something so toxic

I had a great time but things got a little out of hand and I definitely took it too far… we never should’ve hooked up in the first place

I think it’s officially over

Problem is I keep saying that

I keep going back like “I don’t do this very often, it’s good to let loose and live a little, YOLO”

But it’s only good in the moment

I feel like… if I want to have more than 2 glasses of whatever, I’m not going to be happy with myself

Whenever it’s a dinner wine, it’s nice

But when I start to get into party mode, I feel like shit

And with how hard I work on my health… I feel like I’m betraying myself*

And now, I’m sitting on my couch, drinking a coffee and having a long hard think before I pack my bags for my trip.

I’m having a battle with myself on this. I know drinking isn’t great for you… but I also do it so rarely that I definitely recover and cleanse after. As far as drinking goes, I’m pretty healthy with it.

But… That feels like a lie because it’s never really healthy. I’ve heard people talk about the cardiovascular benefits of alcohol… but while it’s benefiting your heart it’s simultaneously damaging your brain. It very much feels like a self enabling excuse to say that. There are other things that are good for your heart, and the healthier your brain is, the more often you will do those things.

I’m just having a down day

A necessary day in the cycle of human emotions, I’ve been in such a good mood I guess I was due 😂

Anyways

I’m gunna go pack my bags and get ready for Hawaii! Thanks for reading, thanks to everyone who came to party with me last night, and I hope you have a beautiful day

Lots of great content incoming

Oh and keep an eye out for my Birthday tip game! It’s a really really good one. I put in the time and gave it a lot of TLC. Tip Game lovers are going to be thrilled! 💋💋💋