A Blog Entry: December 21, 2022 I’m both nervous and anxiou.. (OnlyFans)

A Blog Entry: December 21, 2022

I’m both nervous and anxious about this year while also being excited and happy

Just before Christmas 2018 my parents got divorced, I lost someone last year to suicide and then again this year. Christmas is my favourite holiday but losing people days apart, both from such a tragedy as taking their own lives. And the sadness of my parents separating… It hurts bad. I’m also grateful to have the joy of the Christmas spirit to help me refocus my mind around the time of loss as well. It’s an odd thing.

I spent a butt load of money trying to put content together and I haven’t been able to cover it yet as things got so hectic with the funeral. It’s majorly adding to my stress but I’m trying my best to keep my head high. I don’t have time to cry in bed, I HAVE CELEBRATING TO PREPARE FOR 😂.

I’m sitting on my couch and looking at how much Christmas cost me buying gifts for my family, but I’m also so excited for everyone to open their gifts. I think I did a really great job selecting the perfect gifts for everyone. I’m most looking forward to the kids in the family unwrapping all the awesome toys I got them. I love shopping for them, I never got to have toys like this when I was a kid. Money aside, it’s a healing shopping adventure.

I feel both tense and also like I have some wonderful memories to look forward to. I’m making plans with my sister, we’re going to basically join together and travel to see both my parents. Christmas Eve and Day at Dads, then Boxing Day and the 27th at Moms. It should be really nice!

I haven’t had a chance to upload my Christmas content yet oh boy! Hahaha, I’m cutting the timeline so close! I do want to send some stuff out live though so I can interact and *celebrate Internet Christmas the right way!* ♥️🎁

I really like the content I put together!

I haven’t been eating the best or really working out. I hope I can get back to that without any interruptions after the New Year. The holidays can be so wonderful but also so so so damn stressful. I started getting ready at the beginning of November, I wanted to be able to relax and work slowly on holiday tasks and here I am stressed. To be fair to myself, I didn’t plan on flying to Texas for a funeral. Oooof 😪

🧘‍♀️ I’m just imagining the kids opening toys and smiling and it honestly brings me all the peace in the world. I know that when I’m with my family I can run around and play with them and I’ll just feel so filled with love and childllike energy. I really need that right now.

And to win the lottery… if anyone happens to win this year, sprinkle a little my way? 😂

This little break sitting here and writing was great actually. Quite cleansing! I feel really good ♥️ I should honestly do this more. Thanks so much for taking the time to read. Let me know if you like this sort of thing