Masturbated for the first time in a WHILE. (i tried an inter.. (OnlyFans)

Masturbated for the first time in a WHILE. (i tried an interesting angle… kind of looks like YOU are masturbating!) 
Needed it. I have a lot on my mind right now. I also need to work out. I’m just feeling very overwhelmed today.
(Sad news..) 
Last night I was waking up and trying to help Squidge my rat boy, and then falling asleep and then waking again to make sure he’s okay or dead. I love rats but their passing is always so long and difficult.. just wish death could be easier. It never is. I’ve called 10 different vets this morning and all of them either didn’t accept rats or they were booked completely. What’s the point of an emergency vet if they don’t actually do emergencies…🤨 I just don’t get it.