Had some real life problems but all is good now 🤤 Not sure i.. (OnlyFans)

Had some real life problems but all is good now 🤤
Not sure if i should share what happened because i don't want my onlyfans page to be about sad things. But let's keep it at a family member who's gotten himself in a bad medical condition wich took my mind of it a couple days...
I am going to start posting more and answering all messages again, sorry for taking a break for a few days x
I feel safe enough to start looking for a real date and get fucked. I am so ready now...
I am thinking about how i want my first time to be.
Have you tought about that before?
Personally, i want a guy who makes me feel like a sissy slave and not like his girlfriend
I don't want compliments or kisses, i want spanks and humiliation 😘
I will have to make sure to find someone who is totally fine with me recording it, taking pictures so i can post it on my onlyfans of course.
Thats going to change the experience for me allot! Taking pictures and videos isn't done in a few seconds! 
Also abit scared for my safety. But i am SO ready to earn that title as cumdumpster.