3 MONTHS ON HORMONES, NO WIG, NO MAKEUP : UPDATE/ THE TRUTH .. (OnlyFans)

3 MONTHS ON HORMONES, NO WIG, NO MAKEUP : UPDATE/ THE TRUTH
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Time goes fast... and I'm already 3 months on HRT. 
This means male hormone blockers and female hormone boosters.
This picture is taken a couple days ago. I wanted to show you what I look like raw, without any make-up or wigs. So you have a better idea...

When I was driving to the doctor to get my first injection, I was very hesitant and scared and nervous. A big step. For everyone. I talked long and hard about this. But this felt right. I did it. 

The first weeks, probably nothing happened. But I did notice some changes but those were probably psychological. I felt calmer. I felt at peace. It's difficult to describe. Imagen not having any sexual desires. You can basicly hyper focus on anything else. It's kinda like that. I was also very motivated to continue with my feminizing workouts and skincare routines because of this big step. That helped me out a lot.

After a few more weeks, I noticed my skin getting softer. But only sometimes. It was very subtle. Perhaps this was also just in  my head. I didn't get any erections whatsoever in the morning. The only erections I get is when I decide to be aroused. It's like i'm in control of my sex drive now.

After a month, my libido dropped. This didn't suck as bas as i tou!ght it would. I still like sex and enjoy being a stupid cumslut for men haha. Its just less of a craving now. Compliments, feeling good about myself, are now turn-ons! When someone makes me feel pretty and safe, I love it.

After 2 months, I had an orgasm without cum. I panicked a little. It was very intense and amazing but at the same time, it felt very permanent. I had 2nd thoughts about all of this. 

At 2.5 months I talked with my psychologist. I felt like a failed brother, a failed man, a selfish coward. I didn't feel good about myself. I experienced a lot of guilt. I felt guilty for my envirerment and all the people who have to deal with these changes. But at the same time. I really want it. We talked about how far I want to go. If I wanted any surgeries. I said No. I don't think i'm 100% female. I enjoy being feminin and I love to dress however I want. Perhaps the label ''non binary'' or ''Bi Gender'' would fit me better. But I don't care about those labels. I prefer the label Feminin sissy fuck doll! :D

It's almost time for my 2nd shot.
I hesitate a little bit. My health is very important. And So far everything has been going good. But the no erections / no sperm / the side effects from male hormone blockers worried me a little bit.
Specificly when my psychologist said to me that I can only take these male hormone blockers for maximum 2 years because thats when health risks develop. (A bening tumor of the meninges is a very very small chance for example). After 2 years, I would have to remove my testosteron production in a different way, if you get my point. Hell no. First a little chat with my doctor.
2nd may is my appointment.