Testing out a bit more of a fem vibe today to just feel what.. (OnlyFans)

Testing out a bit more of a fem vibe today to just feel what it feels like? I’m kind of liking it. 

I’m having problems with my transition where I feel like I’m stuck only doing masc… I want to be able to be ANYTHING without judgement. I want to be a boy and do all. It sucks being in a female body, but my female organ doesn’t make me feel like a female I don’t know how to explain it,

I’d rather have my removable penis especially for my circus career too. It doesn’t get in the fucking way of my moves. My large clit already hurts on the Lyra, let alone a dick and balls. To me that never made me a man, it’s what I’ve always felt on the inside that did.
I also just.. feel like a creature half of the time too. Like a he/him entity.. idk idk idk idk,, but def more boy. Never a girl or a she:her. I’m probably just mentally fucked or something. I just hate gender norms and constructs BRO. 
I just wish others understood that too. I know it’s super hard to grasp the understanding of, but it’s just how I feel. Idk. I feel like a boy but feminine sometimes.