I almost didn't post that video yesterday but I am so glad t.. (OnlyFans)

I almost didn't post that video yesterday but I am so glad that I did. 

When I started filming I had no idea what I was doing, I almost watched a JOI video for inspiration but I stopped myself at the last second. I decided I would just go from the heart and be as authentic as possible. I imagined that I was talking to someone that I had a crush on and my main goal was to feel pleasure with them. Mid way through, I realized I was turning myself on, and I just went with it and what came out was just me in my most raw state. 

After I orgasmed I had that moment of "omg, what am I doing" and I thought "I can't post this" so I recorded 3 other versions. But when I watched those other versions, I could tell that they were fake. I was pretending to feel pleasure, I was pretending to have an orgasm and it just didn't feel right. So for a moment, I decided I wasn't going to post anything. Then as the day went on, I watched my original version a few times and slowly the butterflies went away and I started to get excited at the thought of sharing it. So I did. 

A couple of people have messaged me about my orgasm, asking if it was fake because it wasn't theatrical, but honestly, if you ever see me have a theatrical orgasm, then that is probably fake. What you saw in that video was what I look like when I orgasm. Nothing crazy, very calm, but intensely pleasurable. 

I didn't originally plan to share that experience with you yesterday, but I am so glad that I did. Like I have said in the past, I don't want to schedule my horniness, or get to a point where I feel obligated to masturbate on camera, but when I am feeling horny, and when I want to orgasm, I am glad to know that I have such an amazing group of people to share it with. 

<3 Nb