(Blog essay incoming) I’ll never understand why someone wou.. (OnlyFans)

(Blog essay incoming)

I’ll never understand why someone would go out of their way to put me in a bad mood that I would obviously have trouble getting out of. After everything I’ve done, how much time and Effort I’ve given them and how much money they’ve made out of our content he won’t give me. 

 There’s a popular comic/ anime/ fantasy/ sci-fi convention going on locally in Miami called Supercon. Tickets are 122 a person but they have bestie, throuple and squad bundles. 

The bestie bundle is $177. I asked if he wanted to go halfsies on it with me so that I cover my own ticket. I didn’t ask him to be a sugar daddy or anything and I’m giving him the opportunity to spend time with me for the next 3 days at this comic convention before he’s gone from my life forever. 

So I offer my precious time and would pay him back in order to buy my ticket, I would pay the 89 and I figured we could get merchandise or food with the money we save. 

He starts going off on how I should be buying his ticket for how much I put him through, for banging up the outside of his computer after he wouldn’t give me the content we made, even though I pay all the rent, food, utilities, and I’ve even bought his gas and disgusting nicotine vape stuff in the past to get him off cigarettes. 

Like I am positive I have spent more on him than any other friend or lover he has ever had. But he’s still keeping me pressed for no one’s benefit. He’s giving me a horrible day because I don’t want to buy his convention ticket even though he won’t even buy a movie ticket to go on a movie date with me. This is insane. 

I don’t have time to get into broke boy bullshit every day anymore. So, I’m obviously in a trash mood after he shows me again that he’s never going to provide any peace or opportunities of joy for me. Then he tries recording me having a meltdown that he’s trying to make me have. I shouldn’t have offered to go halfsies on the besties bundle with him and I hope to have more friends in the future so I don’t get into this weird mental zone I’m in where I can’t even breathe. 

Going for a drive and cruise until I detach and release all these feelings. We could have been there by now and I’m just disappointed and angry at myself for trying with someone who has no interest in ever making my days good or any of my efforts worth it. I wish he was worth it. 

I can’t wait to be free and surrounded by people who value me, adore me, appreciate me. Maybe even have lovers who won’t hold our content hostage and then treat me like I’m the bad guy for trying to flourish in my business so that I could pay the rent he never helps out with. 

Ugh. I want to be free. I need peace, joy, fun, good people and freedom.

I’m not even in the mood to go anymore. Wasted 3 hours of my day because I stood up for myself and said I didn’t want to pay for him anymore.