He makes me feel like I have 5 personalities cuz I end up tu.. (OnlyFans)

He makes me feel like I have 5 personalities cuz I end up turning into someone I’m usually not. 
 
 Which works out for people who want to get slapped around and degraded… but that’s a lot of work, too. 😆
 
 I’ll be soft again after a nap. 
 
 I shouldn’t have to pull teeth to get a make out session. It’s okay to accept that he doesn’t really like me and I don’t want to waste any more of my time or his. I also don’t want to work 10 times as hard to make 10 times less money. I don’t want to get any more radical because of him. I can’t even get a 2 minute b/g video, a 30 second handjob video or a 30 second blowjob video. This is bullshit. No one wants to buy a video of me sucking on a soft, limp, small cock. It’s so stressful I’m not even horny when I really need to be. 
 
 It just doesn’t make any sense for me to be with him. 
 
 It also feels like he doesn’t really want to be with me either and I have to accept that. 
 
 Take care. You’re definitely one of those people that gets off on attention and energy (even if it’s negative) and I sincerely can’t afford it or want it anymore. 
 
 No breakfast in bed, no dates, no anniversaries, no gifts, no sex, no foreplay, no birthdays, no flowers, no shopping or vacations or allowance. There’s literally nothing going on between us. Like what the fuck is wrong with you? Not even cuddles or making out. Just you constantly draining me of time, money and resources and it ends up hurting me more than you could ever imagine. Not that you care. I’m the only one who has a job and you’re still acting like I do nothing when I pay for everything and you can’t even be a man and have a boner. Which is on YOU for ruining your own brain with porn, nicotine and 3 energy drinks a day. I don’t need you or your aggressive, pathetic behavior and dialogue. I literally can’t stand you anymore. We fight every single day. I don’t want it anymore. Drink some goddamn water and take walks like a normal person. 
 
 I don’t know why I bothered and I don’t want to be taken advantage of anymore. I helped you out a lot cuz I cared and felt bad for you. But I’ve spent more than what’s reasonable and you’re still picking fights and making my life harder. There’s no point and I don’t want to write essays into the void anymore or feel the need to. My life should be easier. You make it seem like your life would be easier without me everyday. So enjoy that.