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I hope that’s the last essay I write here. 

I know it’s a treat for people who enjoy stream of consciousness posts. 

Maybe some of you enjoy the break from the constant feed of pussy, tits and cock on the wall feed. 

I feel 1000 times lighter after expressing myself. 

I feel a little silly, but today’s a new day. 

It’s never too late to start a new beginning. 

I know onlyfans isn’t a journal space but I enjoy using it as I please. 

I think more people will be using onlyfans more casually in the future. I see people using it as a journal/blog space, fb, a place to sell classes, music or showcase their artwork/writing/cooking/acting/ glamour photos/cosplay photos/ vacation photos/ nature photos/ pet photos. It’s a fun space to be.

Thanks for being here for me and allowing me a space to be vulnerable and honest. I am not perfect, I have things to improve upon and I’ve done wrong, too. It was helpful for me to process and there has been good and help from him sometimes. Some chapters are growing chapters. I am human. So is he. I am attached. He might be, too. I care about him. It didn’t feel right for me to leave someone because their equipment didn’t work. They are human and I know my job is my responsibility. I will do better even if he won’t. Maybe I should communicate better instead of letting feelings and thoughts fester inside of me. I’m grappling with a lot and maybe I’m lashing out bc of my own inabilities to handle and finish everything. It’s okay to be incompatible. We must do what’s best for us. 

There is a solution to everything. We just need to take it one step at a time and minimize distractions. 

At the end of the day it’s up to me to write my own story and give myself a happy ending.