My van just stopped working today on the way to my birthday .. (OnlyFans)

My van just stopped working today on the way to my birthday lunch and I'm pretty fucking depressed about it. I have no money to fix it so I'm going to have to borrow money from my family again. I love being a total failure, at least I can count on nothing ever going my way. If you donate anything to ppal I'll give double rewards. I'm just lost and completely drained of happiness right now.