I was remembering this guy I dated back when I was skinny w.. (OnlyFans)

I was remembering this guy I dated  back when I was skinny with only big boobies haha

He told me a story about this chick that was a local rapper? I think she did something with music.. he talked about how she was one of the most beautiful women he had ever met. He described her to me he said the only thing was that she was SUPER fat. Like beyond obese. He told the story with such an awe but had to end it with , the only thing wrong with her was that she was FAT. 

While he told me all this I was secretly thinking woah that’s hot 😂 goals ! Especially since I’ve always been into music/music production that was double-y hot. 

that wasn’t the only time he brought up these types of topics lol he also would talk about his best friend and how he was always hooking up with extremely fat women. He would tell me in sort of disgust but he also seemed generally upset over it. Like why is he openly sleeping with fat women? Doesn’t his friend care what people think about him ??? 
He probably felt like he was missing out … it was also weird how he wanted me to look like his mom and sister that were a size 2 or something stupid like that.
Yet he would compliment me when I would take out a big meal and cuddle me afterwards … like wut? Plus he talked about other fat women stories here and there way more than anyone I knew at the time.
Looking back on it; he was totally an in closet f.a!
 He was completely captivated by big women but couldn’t accept that about himself and also the f.a community was such an obscure thing at the time there was no feabie no plus size  no body positivity. 

But then when we were officially dating he wanted me to look like his mom? She was a hottie but that’s still fucked up to hint to ur gf 😂 talk about mommy issues.
His mom hated me for some reason so I wasn’t convinced. It was sometime around when we broke up that I gained a little more 

Anyways I’m not a big Ayn Rand fan but I read the Fountainhead, and he kind of reminds me of Peter Keating.
There’s a few more stories I have about observing dudes like this before I actually got into WG 

They just weren’t very good at hiding it 😅