October has been a month of reflection, rest, and resetting... (OnlyFans)

October has been a month of reflection, rest, and resetting. I haven’t been working hard at all, and that’s something my high-achieving self has had a difficult  time allowing. 

Can I be honest with y’all? I realized that no matter how “active” I was on this platform, I still felt like it wasn’t enough. So I’ve been feeling into my relationship with my work, my interactions and relationships, and being radically honest with myself in terms of my needs - which tend to change often - which is also okay. 

I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions and feeling into them earnestly. 

Something I know - I love to give. I love to give my time, my energy, and share my abundance. But a wise healer reminded me recently that I need to fill myself up first, because once I do that - **everyone else will be grateful for what’s left over.**

Does this resonate for anyone else? What a beautiful lesson in worthiness and ‘enoughness.’ 

I don’t want to show up depleted and in my old story of “never enough.” I want to stay aligned in my truth, my purpose. And when I need to refocus on areas that have been depleted or misaligned, I want to hear the subtle whispers instead of pushing onward to ‘make it happen’ — which is innately masculine. And at times, both necessary and worthwhile. 

Cuz listen y’all, I *do* **make shit happen** & I don’t want to hide my power as a manifesting witch, but I’ve been leaning into the act of surrendering to what is — life isn’t just “sink or swim” — it’s about knowing when you’re safe to let go, be held by the waves, and allow yourself to safely float to where you need to be. 

And that is where I am. Which is innately feminine. And at times very scary! 

I could speak on all my plans for my work and the amazing new directions I intend to take. But — I would rather wait. The unfolding is the foreplay. 

So, I’ll leave this message with an intention: 
I am calling in those who know I’m worth the wait. 
I am calling in those who accept me even when I’m not “on” and fulfilling a fantasy or projection assigned. 
I am calling in those who feel and love my layers. 
I’m calling in those who are happy for my leftovers. 
I am calling in those who are ready to embrace the light *and* the dark. 

You don’t have to understand it all. 
Feeling is enough. ♥️