I think I'm working on a new theory that I call systemic sex.. (OnlyFans)

I think I'm working on a new theory that I call systemic sexuality. Hear me out. Everyone hates thirsty dudes to the point that someone like me who is super not thirsty at all is accused regularly of it. I think the problem is that these guys only think about being sexual in the moment, or attempting to be sexually appealing would probably be more accurate, whereas myself, I might say something complimentary but it's not me truly flirting. I like hyping people up, male or female. It's fun. I get people talking about themselves and then tell them how awesome they are for whatever they do in their life that they want to bring up to a stranger and boom! Fun times. 😁

I told my son a year and a half ago to focus on himself and that's exactly what I have done since because I want to be the type of person who takes their own advice. I focused on me and who I actually am and who I want to be and I just fully embraced it so now I'm really comfortable in my own skin and people who don't have that, I feel bad for them. I know I'm not perfect but I know I'm way better than I was and I'm going to be better than I am now. That's not just regarding fitness. I work on me in a bunch of ways. I care about and speak out on behalf of things I believe in way more. I have a bigger heart than ever before. I love dogs now cuz my cat allergy says cats don't love me back anymore. 🥺

Anyways, not that anyone is reading this, I'm really just typing out my random thoughts when I should be being productive... But honestly, my random thoughts lead to productivity a lot so I allow myself to indulge sometimes.

But so, one aspect of myself that I've embraced is that I just have a lot of sexual energy and so that comes out in my persona so I'm just like systemically sexual/sexy depending on how you see me. I'm blessed. There are just things about me that people see as appealing that I did nothing to earn AND I work on myself a lot. Lots of times me just being nice or joking around with people they take as flirtatious or me attempting to be sexually appealing and if they're into it they start to give that energy back to me and we just vibe. That comes from being genuinely interested in the human that I'm talking to, not just my desire to stick part of me into part of her.  Guys who don't have that going for them, they have to attempt to find that outta nowhere and it's hard for them. 

A girl at a club once asked me how I get my sexy on, yes that song was playing and yes it was a cute way to open a conversation. I told her I keep my sexy on. 😂 It was a fun night. 😁



*Back Street boys lyric*
Am I sexual?! 

Me: if you have to ask the answer is probably no.