I sent him my last essays in text today. Like 10 paragraph.. (OnlyFans)

I sent him my last essays in text today. 

Like 10 paragraphs. 

I don’t really understand why he won’t help me with anything important… and I just.. also… don’t care anymore. I don’t want to cry and scream for help anymore. I told him I can’t take being in hell with him anymore. I need and deserve more than someone who takes out the trash and gets water from Costco. I don’t know what stupid planet you’re on where you think that’s all I need and deserve. 

You’d think for a guy that can’t fuck or give orgasms, he’d do a little more elsewhere. 

There’s plenty of people who would make a video with me without the strezz, help promote me, help me buy ads so I can make enough to relax. After 4 years of strezz, I kinda just woke up one day and… didn’t find him attractive anymore. 😅 I’m not fighting for love that you don’t have for me. 

My lover or lovers should be the president of my fan club. Not my worst enemy slowing me down and bringing me more burdens on top of all the stuff I already have going on. Don’t I look like I have enough going on??? 🙄 Help or gtfo so someone bigger, better and smarter than you can help me get back to the top 1%. I used to be in the top .05 percent and ever since he came into my life I’ve dropped to the top 10%. I just can’t do this anymore sacrificing everything for someone who wants to be a loser and drag me down with him. 

I want someone who says, “what do you need?” And then just gives it to me without putting me on the absolute edge of insanity and on guard about my money. I want someone who would love to help me and would be proud of having someone in the top 1%. 

 It’s been weird to try and love someone who resents me for making money that he directly benefits from with free food and money to help him finish school and get off of cigarettes and vaping. He just doesn’t love me enough and I want to only give myself to people who love me enough to never ever want me to strezz. 

He just sits around on his phone doing stupid things instead of helping me online or in real life till I have a breakdown over and over and over again begging him for help because I am only 1 person. I always see couples having fun on onlyfans. It’s easy for those boyfriends and husbands to help their lovers. I don’t understand why he’s making this an absolute nightmare for me instead of giving me the best time of my life. 

It kills me that he’s making this a nightmare for me instead of giving me a good time. I told him again to leave his key and don’t ever come back here again. You’ve done everything possible to make sure I don’t love you anymore. I don’t love you anymore. I hope you’re happy with the results of your actions. You have nobody left and you will never find someone who was willing to do as much as I did for you. I kept telling you I need b/g content and instead of giving me 5 minutes of content you fight me or ask me for 50% of my onlyfans or a percentage of sales which is ridiculous when you cant even get your dick hard for a 1 minute handjob video that I could sell to make $500 a night. 

You won’t make any or get off your porn, nicotine and caffeine addiction long enough to get a boner so I can make a 2 minute video to change our life. You won’t take me on dates, I’ve never gotten an anniversary, birthday or Christmas celebration. You couldn’t make it any more obvious that you don’t love me and I feel stupid for have dragging it out this long for 4 years trying to make it work with someone who makes me hate myself and my life. 

You’re not worth this hell and I’m tired of feeling like the ugliest most worthless person on this planet being loyal to you. Go find some garbage on your level to be with because I don’t want you anymore and I should have left you 4 years ago.