If he didn’t come over and vape i would have gone on stream .. (OnlyFans)

If he didn’t come over and vape i would have gone on stream today. I need a different type of person that cares about keeping my mental health A-1 and is actually smart and caring enough to help me be on top of things. I don’t want to work 15-18 hours a day or be this miserable anymore. I want to study more and finish school but I can’t when I’m trying to managing over 6 social media accounts and help people who are taking more than they are giving. I don’t even want to live in this area anymore. I’m tired of spiraling every time he comes around and being worried sick about when his lungs are gonna collapse and how he’s wasting the sexiest years of my life for no one’s benefit. He only helps when I’ve had a completely catastrophic breakdown and that’s during a rare moon and then just sits around vaping and fucking around on the internet while I’m drowning in a million tasks and voices. 

I’m tired of not having any b/g content and fighting till I cry for help that he doesn’t give anyways. He’s not making this even 5% worth it.  I don’t want him in my life anymore. Please just leave so my life can get better with better people around me.