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I remember I asked him when’s the last time he took me on a date and he didn’t have an answer. 

I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I never want to be this mean, angry and upset every day. This isn’t me. He won’t add to my life or help me with anything important and I feel like he’s my worst enemy when I need a best friend. You can’t expect someone to be good and kind to you when all you do is waste my time and do nothing to soften me, make my life easier or allow me any chance to be feminine. I don’t want to be masculine anymore and argue with someone who clearly doesn’t care about or or isn’t even attracted to me. What the fuck are you doing here besides taking advantage of me? You’re always here but have no time to help. You don’t have a job and refuse to help. How did you expect this to turn out?