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He would beat up 10 dudes IRL to keep me to himself but won’t kiss me or have sex with me once a month. I need someone who can stop vaping nicotine every other minute, binge watching porn and drinking 5 energy drinks a day to the point where he can’t get a hard on.

 I don’t want to nag and be negative but he’s making me do it.  I can’t keep watching him do this to himself and I can’t be quiet when he triggers me with the sound of him vaping from that giant vaping battery machine and he’s on his 5th energy drink for the day. He loves all these things more than me. I don’t want this anymore. As soon as he wakes up it’s downing a whole energy drink or entire liter of coffee meant for a week in a day and it’s the last thing he drinks before passing out after staying up for 3 days and 2 nights. I can’t live like this. He won’t even brush his teeth once a week and gets mad when I ask him to please brush his teeth if he’s going to vape this much and drink this many energy drinks. Why do I have to be the bad guy here? Why can’t he just brush his teeth every day like a normal person??? Wtf is going on. 

I can’t think with all this second hand nicotine smoke and watching this man k✨✨✨ himself with all these vices. This isn’t normal or healthy. I shouldn’t have to deal with this and I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I need so much more than this every day. I deserve more than this every day. 

I literally do not understand what is going on. 

Am I the bad guy for villainizing someone who’s trying to focus on school? I cook or bring him food every day while he just helps after I have complete breakdowns. Is this ride just too big for him? Am I the bad one not showing more compassion and blaming him for how frozen and inconsistent I am? My challenges are real and I do have executive dysfunction and hyper fixation. I can’t focus. I don’t want to cope with protesting and i can’t work 15 hour days this often. Im still not where I used to be and I don’t know how to get back there. 

I’m not perfect and there’s a lot for me to work on that I need with clarity and help. 

I feel so stupid and angry that I’m becoming a domme in my DMs to feel like I have any power and control. 

Anyone else going through this? She asked jokingly knowing there was no answer. 

She spent the next half hour perusing through messages to talk to her online boyfriends and look at their hard cocks for 20 dollars per internet lover for today only. 

Aaaaah go get things done, Cindy moon 
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