Some of my content is so stupid, I feel like I need to post .. (OnlyFans)

Some of my content is so stupid, I feel like I need to post it before I pass.

With context part 1

I’m in such a dumb situation I had to laugh. I was recording flirty things and he just started talking and getting things out of his system. Hope to spill tea sometime. I don’t like my feelings. He checked out years ago but now wants to try and I’m just ???..ugh so overwhelmed, conflicted, guilty.

idk, just want to be single at this point cuz it’s not fair otherwise to either of my crushes. Let me live my best years and do my best to love. Neither of them want me to talk to the other and I question if I’m serving what is deserved or am I the bad guy for villainizing someone who does have feelings for me and is trying to change for the  better. 

My other crush doesn’t want anything to do with me with my ex n roommate still in the picture bc he’s been so toxic (he said he’s passionate about fighting for me and my love back but I question if that’s just unhealthy possessiveness). I don’t blame him. I’m staying away. I had promised him a year of free rent to help him get through school. He was checked out and we were never clear that we were together. I think about my second crush but he doesn’t need the drama that comes with first crush but my first crush is dramatically relentless to keep me away from second crush. I should stay single. Crush 1 is doing everything he can to keep me away from the game shop and to never see crush 2 ever again. Both want me to commit to them but I obviously cannot. Crush 2 is so good and gentle to me. I just want to work and love privately with lovers that are good for me. 

#cindymoon #love