I give up on seeing Chad as more than he really is and I’m s.. (OnlyFans)

I give up on seeing Chad as more than he really is and I’m starting the new year intent on taking care of myself. 

These should have been the best years of my life, living life stress free with someone/several people in my life willing to do more than bare minimum and putting me in situations where I get mad or frustrated from lack of help. I can’t mentally be with someone who’s making me wait 3 years to get real help. Are you waiting till I’m 50 to help turn me into a successful model? It’s not rocket science to help me take photos from behind or help me make gym tik toks.

 It’s supposed to be fun and sexy to play Instagram husband or be my helper to make of content. I don’t want to live another day not wanting to get out of bed and living this pressed because you want to pretend I’m lazy even though I’ve proven over and over and over again this is a real job and it takes more than 1 person or else my mind gets in a place where it shouldn’t be. 

If he wanted to help he would have by now. 

It is what it is and there’s no point in wasting more time and energy on potential. Enjoy your year without my help because you should have helped me 3 years ago.