If I could talk in real life like I could text things would .. (OnlyFans)
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2023-01-18 10:19:56
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If I could talk in real life like I could text things would be so different. ā¦. Not sure if better, but it would be different. ā¦ Itās probably better that I canāt talk like I text. š¤£ I would like to meett myself halfway at some point. (Please donāt be worried about chad, he canāt get a hard on soā¦ that cuts out like most of the danger. im also positive heās more scared of me if anything and thatās why he canāt get a boner. Iām definitely not scared of him and glad heās trying to work off some of the debt. Heās working full time and in school full time andā¦ I want him to be able to focus and to graduate. His parents canāt help (deadbeat and absent) and I canāt help but help right now. Iām learning to be bigger. Im single and itās a roommate situation. I couldnāt cover rent and all the situations Iām helping with since flashing titties for Myanmar for a couple weeks. Itās a very specific Cindy Moon situation Iām in and Iāll figure it all out as I go. Iāve been more abusive to him than he was to me bc of my attachment issues if Iām gonna be honest and I realize I should be more fair. Itās not easy or for everyone to try and date someone with an onlyfans and I have several with over 10k followers (based on the statistics we know itās ādelayedā and actually a lot higher). Itāsā¦ a lot of pressure I put on him to perform and I have been guilty of sending him probably 100-200 texts in a row. He doesnāt have to help with my work if heās not comfortable with it. I know I was toxic, too. It doesnāt matter if I had a couple thousand messages on all social media accounts waiting for me, or a couple worlds online breaking me cuz I wasnāt powerful enough to help or change what Iām seeing on my phone screenā¦ i shouldnāt be destroying things and putting holes in walls. Iāll keep working on myself and my fear of being alone some more. Iām at a strange chapter in my life rn. Itās overall positive for the most part and i apologize for the moments when I feel like itās not and kinda heavy and share it. Having someone in real life gives me a chance to break away from the internet some. I appreciate hearing someone in the guest room snoring. Iāll open up more as i dive into real life more. Like on twitch. ) #cindymoon #007 #blog #maihero