Being sober feels so different…. Like time slowed down but t.. (OnlyFans)

Being sober feels so different…. Like time slowed down but the colors and textures of everything I’m seeing feels more vibrant and real. It’s really nice to kinda have a bit of security to make sure I don’t get exposed to anything that makes me want to drink or take any substances. I am much better today and the voices are going away. It’s nice to focus on the messages that are good for me and I spend a decent amount of time quietly reading the good ones over and over again. (I’m talking to the daddy wagons and wild heroes) 

Reducing the input of abuse from my messages has been… life changing. I don’t want to be a brat and if you guys could read what I read, you would understand how I lost myself in darkness. 😅 I’m processing more of what should be done without the voices of people who are just trying to get the most out of me and I’m feeling really good about it. Thank you especially to the minions who have been patient with me when I falter. 

Thanks for being here for me. I am eternally grateful and inspired to do more. I will keep doing what I’ve been doing and rise above all with the best people in the world. Thank you, gentle cavalry and friends. 

(I’m not completely sure what I’m doing but I know I’m always trying to do things in the name of good. Thanks for seeing me in the light I desire to be in. I will always do my best for you all. I don’t know if i can change the world in my lifetime but I will certainly always try. )