For the people who don’t understand how this job is hard and.. (OnlyFans)

For the people who don’t understand how this job is hard and how I struggle to exist…  I have to read degrading, dehumanizing things constantly every day and even when im nice or cannot answer/have no answer they choose to hurt me. 

I didn’t even insult them or do anything mean. Like people are so entitled and toxic when I kindly decline or stand up for myself and they make me out to be the bad guy. I don’t have to meeet with anyone and it hurts u guys to have entitlement. I hated everything he was saying to me and I tried roleplaying and acting to do my best as if it doesn’t affect my mental health to read. I tried! As if I don’t already feel small enough as an Asian woman, they need to say these things to make make them feel bigger? 

I have a limit on how much race play I can handle and they’re not even paying enough to cover any of my bills. Like wtf am I supposed to do here? This was wrong of you and since you wanted to push me away from you, I hope you enjoy losing me as a friend since that’s what you chose to do with your words because I didn’t do what you want. I’m sorry to all my fellow creators who also have to deal with this stuff. I know it’s exhausting and I want you to know I love you and that you’re not alone. I go through these emotional roller coasters every day As do many of my girlfriends who are trying their best to play ghetto therapist because unfortunately we’re not mentally cut out to be lawyers, doctors or whatever’s out there. 

Roleplaying and pretending it’s an acting job is the only way creators can get this done so they can keep the roof over their heads.  I was generous playing along and even gave them a piece of free content and they’re confused as to why I don’t want to meettt up after they’re offering to humiliate, use and minimize me. Like I can’t even make this up.  I don’t ever want to leave the house. 😅 all I said was that I was healing. 

I don’t understand how you could say degrading, sexually scary things to me and then be confused or offended that I said I’m healing and not going to meettt/hook up with you. Like I don’t even know you guys and I don’t know what to do to keep myself from becoming a law & order episode. 

Rant over 😅 good night. Not leaving the house. 

If there really is a group chat of lovers making fun of me and posting more revenge corn… I’m sad and have to mourn my choices again. 

I’ll sleep it off. I had a really good and productive day today and will be focusing on the people who truly care about me and my mental health and have no entitlement or toxic mentalities. I am a good person even if I choose not to sleep with any of you. I don’t have to sleep with any of you. I deserve to be happy and free of harm. This isn’t a normal job, but it’s definitely a real one that most people can’t handle. It’s not normal for me or anyone to read 500+ private thoughts of men. Thank you to all the people who let me talk, exist and ask for help to screen messages that you would never want ur daughter, sister or wife to read. This is a business. Thanks to all those who keep me confident, mentally safe and strong. I am good. I just needed to share insight for the sake of everyone: Creators and normal, healthy people (who are curious about this dark corner of the world most people are too small to acknowledge or learn about). I want friends, family and a life full of love. That is all. I don’t need any responses. Good night. 

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