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This is from 2 censored pics sold in DMs the other night. Would have been neat to hit 1k-3k a night like all the successful models I follow. I hope to 1 day work hard enough to be as consistently successful as they are. 😄 I know someone who used to be a hair stylist and they make 30k a month now doing onlyfans. 🤣 they make a goal of 3k a day. Amazing! 

I tried being there for Ken and was kinda head over heels in love with him for a minute. I think we both realized things about each other that just wasn’t going to work out. I have my flaws and challenges so I understand. They were good to me for the most part. I was always there and open to listening but they never shared any real details and I never pushed. We’d been talking for months. I kept telling them I would have taken care of them and they started saying stuff like, “that’s just not true.” And “I don’t think you really know yourself.” It was really weird and jarring for me. During our falling out he pointed out things I hated about myself that I already knew, how I struggled to take care of myself and real life. I wish he didn’t do that cuz it felt like he was kicking me while I was already down. Like telling a fat person they’re fat. Fat people know they’re fat, they don’t need u telling them and reminding them. 😑

I’m not going into details but it became obvious to me that they had been keeping me at arms length and I realized a few things that broke the wall for me. It was really offputting to not have anyway to prove myself or be good to them. I can’t really do anything if I’ve offered to be there for them and they’re the one who doesn’t want to open up, share details or allow me to provide/show love. It opened my eyes a little more and we clashed until I caved and left them alone like they clearly wanted. The person that I idolized didn’t exist anymore and I realized a few things that weren’t adding up. I miss the fantasy and mirage of the hero in my mind but there’s no way for me to bring it back now. I was enamored for the right reasons and I realized they saw me differently than how I saw me. 

I was willing to commit to them which is insane in this line of work and had offered them 50 percent of a website if they could help me figure out stuff. I thought I was being generous but if that’s not good enough for them, then I can’t do anything about that. Im going to be more business reasonable for myself from now on and let my council of mister slaves have access to me instead. I guess I gotta do this solo and look out for me only like im supposed to. I’ve always been one of those overly generous lovey dovey people when I’m enamored with someone and it’s time to be an adult and more business serious. I’m happy to have my lessons and allow them to move on and I will move on as well. I’m heartbroken but it is what it is. I’m going to give myself happy holidays at home. 

No more chads or ken. 

Thankful for the ken stand in, they were a good model for the shoot. 

I’m taking lessons from Venus and ______  from here on out. 

#cindymoon #007 #silk #venus

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