***Life Update*** Get ur popcorn ready cuz I'm about to drop.. (OnlyFans)

***Life Update***
Get ur popcorn ready cuz I'm about to drop some heavy shit... 🍿 *ahem*
Since I recently got injured at my job doing too much heavy lifting, I haven't been able to go back. Hence the uptick in content -- gotta love that part! But because of the nature of that work, I just don't think it's wise to go back to a job that is so taxing on my body. * *whispers* * (I also don't want to go back because they spied on me while I was not at work and were talking to employees about me, and that is so not cool!! If someone violates me, I'm outtie dude fr.)
That said, I may either have to get another vanilla job, or make Onlyfans my **main gig**. But as my earnings currently stand, I don't make enough to pay my rent. And that's what I'm coming up against now. 
I may not be able to pay my rent in July, and when that happens... I don't know what will happen. I wish things were different, and I wish I didn't have to wish things were different. 
There's some cheap land out there and if I could just have a tiny slice, I could build my own little perfect piece of heaven. But I don't know if I will ever get the chance. 
I had a dream last night that I ventured out into the world in search of opportunity, and for some reason I feel like Onlyfans was what I intended to move toward. You know how in a dream sometimes you just know something is true. It all had super good vibes, even though my future is very unsure...
I know I need to get good, it's just the *how* part that is sometimes difficult to figure out.
It's just really hard to excel when I feel like I'm always just climbing out of a hole. My safety net is just about disintegrated, and I don't want to fall.
I don't think I deserve 10 gold yachts and I don't want anything like that. I just want to be safe and happy because of it. I feel everyone deserves at least that.
Maybe I need to change my perspective and look at things from a different angle to illuminate the solution.
Sugar baby and findom, as great as they may be for some, just have not worked for me. Maybe I just don't try hard enough, but isn't the point that I shouldn't need to? I also don't want to rely on others to give me money -- but like, that's what capitalism is. It's hard to avoid being involved in it when it's shaped our very society. Shaped the way we think and feel about others. 
So what's the answer? What's my call to action? 
Part of me thinks I should do the normal, responsible thing by getting another 9 to 5 and an apartment. Another part of me just wants to become a nomadic wild woman, living freely off the land and the fruits of my labor. Is it best to take the path of least resistance, or do I really need to battle the current to get to where I need to be? Would another job and 4 sheetrock walls fix my problem, or are they a part of it?
Rent is a scam and corporate bureaucrats can suck my ass. Our entire system is built to see us fail, keep us impoverished, and to never look up -- only to see each other with fear, judgement, and hatred for being different. I'm sick of it. If I do nothing else in this life, I will god damn prosper. Live long, bitches. 🖖