Waiting to get laid. Makes me want to finger myself, but the.. (OnlyFans)

Waiting to get laid. Makes me want to finger myself, but then the sex might not be as intense. So patience, my dear. Put the fingers down and step away from the vibrator before someone gets hurt.

I am way more intense sexually than I let on. I am freaky as fuck. Especially when it cums to mental sex. It scares most people how into things I can get. So, I have to tame it down lest I be friendless and painted with a scarlet "P" for pervert. My game is mental. I'm not into pain, giving, or receiving. I tried it, but it didn't do a thing for me. Mental pain? Nah. More like mental anguish. That's my thing. So many people lie about being freakishly into sex, especially women. I just have to nod my head and smile as I'm thinking about eating their ass.

I believe the difference I have from most people is I don't just want to be fucked... I want to be the one fucking you as well. I do like being a random cum bucket. I love the feeling I get from being used like a blowup doll and then tossed away after I get pumped. But I like dishing out that feeling as well. Both mentally and physically. No, I'm not talking about fucking you in the ass with a dildo... though if that's your thing, it can be arranged. It's just another tool in the toolbox of my twisted sex life. What makes me scary is when someone brings up a fantasy. If I like it, I don't just talk about it. I make it happen. A guy kept telling me his fantasy about transsexuals and how he was intrigued by them. He kept bringing it up. It made me wet. I wanted to know what it would be like for him. I wanted to see it. So I set it up, and it wasn't cheap. He agreed to it beforehand, just so you know. After he got his guts mixed up by a chick with a dick, and I admit she was attractive, he couldn't face me anymore. He yelled at me while the TS was still there, telling me I was terrible and trying to turn him gay. It was very awkward. He was acting like a 3 yr old. We broke up that night. Later he tried to get back together. He told me he was ashamed for me to see him because he enjoyed it. He didn't feel like a man anymore. Here was his problem. I was so turned on watching him with the TS that I was losing my mind. I wanted to fuck him so bad it was probably unsafe for him. At that moment, he was the only man for me. I had a million ideas of how we could make this part of our lives. But he killed all of that in seconds. I still wonder where it would have gone if he didn't freak out. I know. Weird story. I was thinking about it because I opened up to a guy here and told him some truths about what I like to do. Some of them would make Satan say, "Fuck that!" So I thought I would share one with you. I must sound like an awful person with a demented mind. Oh well. I enjoy it!