Talk about the female version of "Blue Balls" I've got them,.. (OnlyFans)

Talk about the female version of "Blue Balls" I've got them, and it ain't fun. I'm just saying. I thought for sure I was going to get pumped full of sperm yesterday, and yet I rode home high and dry. My car seat had zero jizz snail trails, and that is not good. I found a guy, I rubbed his cock hard through his jeans, and it felt impressive. I even let him finger me in front of a few folks. I don't know how this didn't happen. I am losing my faith in today's 20-something generation. I went back to his car with him, and we made out. I mean, seriously made out. He fingered my box until it was a sloppy mess. I know it was a gooey mess because I licked myself off of his fingers. Which then made my pussy even gooier than it already was. He had a wet spot in his jeans, and his cock was granite. I could feel it. It felt almost painfully hard. When I went to take it out and force it to feed me sperm, he kept pushing my hand away. He was worried about being seen. I tried to get him inside the car, and he didn't want to do that either. I finally said well, let's go to my place then. We can fuck all night there. Nope. He said we were moving too fast. He wanted to be able to respect me as a woman. Oh, for fucks sake. Respectfully stick your dick in my pussy, swish it around in my insides until I make weird noises and silly faces, and then pump a baby in my guts. Is that too much to ask for? I guess so. I went home sperm free, which is not what I expected nor wanted. He's texting me as I write this, which somewhat shocks me. I didn't think he would want anything to do with an overly sexual MILF more interested in draining his testicles than him personally. I don't know what I'm going to do. It seems like a waste of time. He's hot. He's in his late 20s. His dick seems to be just what my pussy is looking for. But he is such a vanilla dude that I feel it would be boring after the first couple of times. But then, what if he fucks me stupid? Do I want to miss out on that? I'll let you know.