It's hard to admit, but an 18 yr old cock has my heart flutt.. (OnlyFans)

It's hard to admit, but an 18 yr old cock has my heart fluttering. Sadly, it was a seriously bad weekend for my boyfriend. It all kind of fell together for Connor and fell apart for my boyfriend. I feel bad for him. My boyfriend, that is. He wanted to watch me and Connor and fuck, and he finally got his wish. I didn't really want him watching. It ruins the sex for me as I can't be myself, but I agreed after Connor said he wanted him to watch. My boyfriend ended up sitting in a chair with a t-shirt, no pants, and a limp dick that never even remotely got hard the entire time. Maybe because he ended up watching what had to be the most sensual sex I have ever had, and that's saying something. It's really saying something because he isn't even 19 yet. We made love. Twice and for almost two hours. We both got into it way more profound than either of us thought possible. I don't even know what to say. It got that intimate and in front of my boyfriend, who asked me to marry him Friday night. He got his answer yesterday while Connor was plowing my insides with his cock and demanding that I tell him that I love him. I did because I do. It may be that it's his cock and the massive amounts of sperm it dumps, along with the infatuation with him being 18, but it doesn't matter. I love having that deep connection with him, even if it is just sexual. And when I told Connor to tell me he loved me, he said he would, but only if I told my boyfriend after he left yesterday that he could never come back. I told my boyfriend he had to go after we were done fucking and take anything that was his with him. He literally watched a boy half his age fuck me so good that he stole me from him. I don't know what that felt like for him, but I came so hard when I saw the recognition in his eyes that another man had removed him from him my life. Did I feel bad for him? Yes, I did. But I think he knew I wasn't the girl for him. He watched me tell an 18 yr old I belonged to him. It had to hurt. I know it did. He was having a hard time talking. After Connor came inside me for a second time, I was leaking vast amounts of his sperm, which smells so good it makes my mouth water, and I asked my now ex-boyfriend if he wanted to lick me clean in front of Connor. He said no. So I said, "Your loss." and scooped it up and ate his pearly white slimy jizz from my fingers, licking them clean. I then asked him if he wanted me to watch him jerk off one last time, and he said no to that as well; that was his clue it was time to leave. He packed his things and left. Do I feel bad? Kind of, but not really. He never really stepped up to the plate as my own personal cuck bitch, which was the agreement. So any loyalty I had to him waned away with his failure to perform his cuck duties. I guess I kind of want to keep him around a little bit. I want to tell him how much more of a woman I feel when Connor breeds me as a real man should. I don't think I have released him from serving me, but then again, Connor said no. It's a quandary.

Connor has now asked to move in with me. I am considering it. I am worried it will kill the excitement. Plus, he might expect me to be faithful. No matter how deep my feelings for him might get, that isn't going to happen. I'll keep you posted.