There is a reason why I made this ass fucking video today. .. (OnlyFans)

There is a reason why I made this ass fucking video today.  Because there is an abundance of available cock, but it is not a definite cock.  I need to cum now and then, waiting on the mystery dick.  I don't want to get the box all stretched out and banged up.  I want it fresh and ready for battle. Look, the camerawork is awful on this one but the buttpie at the end, magical.  I'll be greased up for days after that one.  Check it out.  @u125291845

 Maybe I can find that one special cock tomorrow.  The one that makes me cock dumb.  I prefer it to be a younger one.  Twenty-five or so.  One that wants me to be his cum holes.  I'm good with that. Wildly if he fucks me stupid.  The best part about being fucked stupid is when it wears off.  You realize all the completely depraved things you did for the sole reason of making his penis happy.  It's funny when my boyfriend asks me why I do certain things with other guys that I won't do with him.  Duh.  He doesn't fuck me into a mindless cum sponge.  I got close to being cock brain dead the other day.  I enjoyed that.  I still think about it.  I want to go all the way.  It seems extreme to some, but it's not the physical experience. Though that is unbelievable, it's the mental experience. That will probably be my demise one day because it makes it hard to believe I can survive orgasms like that.  It sounds like I want to be submissive and bow down.  That's not it.  I am not submissive in the least.  Not saying I won't beg for cum. I will and without shame.  It's the fantasy of it.  I can live this fantasy out.  Then when it's over, the sperm is wiped off of my thighs, my mind gets a hold on reality. I am back to being just regular old me.  Just with a bunch of hot spank bank material to finger myself off to later on.  What was my favorite past thing to think about was when I was in cock dumb mode?  It's kind of weird, maybe a little gross, but I'd do it again if I found a cock like his.  My brain would flip a switch the second I saw his cock, and I would instantly be just a dumb cum hole for him.  He did whatever he wanted, and he wanted to do me a lot.  He was married.  I had to go to his office to get fucked stupid by him.  He used to cum twice, sometimes a third in an hour or so.  He called me to meat him at his office, and I went.  He fucked me in my ass, bent over some cabinet, and dumped his load in my colon.  He told me to sit on his desk and finger myself while he did a little work.  I did.  My ass leaked his cum onto his desk.  He told me to lick it up.  I did.  Then he fucked me again and pulled out, walked over to his desk, and dumped his second load of sperm on it.  Then he told me to not lick it up but suck it up.  I slurped and sucked till it was no more.  He had me kneel on the floor and told me to masturbate till I came and then leave.  I did just that, and after I came, I dressed and tried to say goodbye, but he shhhh'd me and told me to go.  I left without a word.  Why would I do all of that?  Because when he dropped that dick in my pussy, my pussy was my brain.