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I need a hair transplant, butt implants, areola reduction surgery, and tit implants. Maybe canthal tilt correction surgery, too. Loving myself as I am simply isn't possible when everybody in the fucking world keeps telling you otherwise. It's all I hear. It is All. I. Hear. Thanks to selfish men, I have nothing but hate for myself. There is no love.. and those who say they do like something, because it's rare.. I figure they're saying it out of pity, or they're trying to make me unconditionally thankful, so thankful that I will fuck them. Imagine being complimented and then being expecting to fuck or date in exchange for it, like I am desperate for love.
I am, but not in that way. I've heard it all and been tricked into it all, before. I've had it happen. It just makes it hella worse. When people give you compliments in exchange for sex or "date" that leads to sex inevitably, or it "wasn't a date it was just a fucking hang out at this point, we aren't friends.".
Will I ever love myself as I am? No. I need surgery. I can't look at myself with honest baseline level appeal. Thank you to the people who ruined it? No, not quite ruined it... you can't ruin that which was never existent. Thank you to the people who never proved me wrong.