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A Masc Rant? Enjoy (tw: internalized transphobia)

So a lot of the clothes I have are either clothes I got a long time ago, hand-me-downs from my sister and mother, or a few new pieces I enjoy that typically skew feminine. I have been pretty scared to present more masculinely for many reasons. 1. being afraid of looking like an imposter, like a fake man, and not being taken seriously in my appearance e.g just being made fun of by the general public IRL (online hate comments don't affect me at all) 2. being afraid of being hate crimed lol 3. I am so used to presenting and behaving in the feminine role i was assigned since I was born and find some comfort in that, so I do have to work a bit to dress masc even if its something I really want to do. 4. It's new and scary 5. due to my body proportions I feel like I won't look good in masc clothes but desperately want to do look masc

However, taking the time to watch "how to pose like a man" on YouTube LOL and seeing the ways I do have a lot of masc features felt really good. I feel cool in these photos even if I feel like an awkward teenage boy learning how to walk in this new body. I hope that doing more of these photoshoots will make me feel more confident in my gender identity and my gender presentation to the point that I will no longer care about pronouns or what words people use to describe me because I know what I feel like, I know what I can look like, and having friends see all those sides of me. Being a man is cool, and being a woman is also comforting and safe and cool, but I think it's time for me to really not give a fuck about people's perceptions of me and experiment with what makes me feel confident. 

thanks for listening to my rant <3 also no pressure but if anyone wants to get my a binder or trans tape off my wishlist i would cry :) my sports bra doesn't really work that well lmao https://throne.me/u/kipp

#trans #masc #ftm #nonbinary #genderfluid #nonbinary