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SUPER SFW UPDATE (TW: MENTION OF H*R*SSM*NT AND SU!CID3)

The other day, I had a really bad episode. I decided to deactivate all my social media accounts. I have this feeling I want to start from a clean slate. I may have let too many people in these personal accounts e.g., FB and IG, and I feel like I am constantly being chased or watched over. A guy who harassed me in High School even recently messaged me, constantly trying to get in touch with me and I am terrified and losing my shit, but I have to keep it together. Idk. I also felt that I was starting to compare myself to other content creators, and I hate that. I hate seeing them as competition, because I am here not to compete with anybody. I am here to make genuine connections and improvements for myself. As much as I am grateful for these numbers, I am not here for them. I am here to support others and cheer for their successes, not be insecure about them! So I am taking a step back on these platforms.

I will still be active on Fansly and Reddit, but I’m really tempted to make new accounts for FB and IG, though I don’t know if I will make it public :\\ it just gives me anxiety. People using my personal photos, people still attempting to leak my content, and finding out personal information about me to threaten me. It’s discouraging and disheartening and the problem is I am not even a big content creator so I feel very powerless. I’ve been feeling really depressed and let down, so I am gonna be more private for a little while. I hope you guys understand!

I still want to show my vulnerabilities, however, since I think a lot of people are driven to be strong, but it’s definitely ok to not be! 

Due to my depression recently, I even stopped attending my previous semester, so I  need to fix some things with the university. I’m gonna be honest—I’m tired. I am fucking exhausted haha and I just wanna stop and disappear (iykyk). I’ve been thinking about offing myself. I’m trying really hard to steer the wheel away from that path.

I am tired, but I try. I hope y