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My dog Max passed away last night. He was my best friend for the last 15 years, and if you ever met him, he quickly became one of your best friends too 💕

As far as losing a pet goes, this was one of the better ways. It happened in the comfort of our living room while he was surrounded by all his favorite people. I held him in my arms as he took his last breath.

As expected as it was, it still felt sudden. We had a serious health scare a little over a week ago, and I thought that was the end, but he had fully bounced back from that. He was eating, walking, and generally being his old self.

However, last night he woke up from a nap, walked over to me, and just dropped to the floor. I knew what was happening. I picked him up, held him close, and whispered loving words to him. He was truly the best boy.

Max had been with me from day one of Nakedbakers. He was always there, just off camera, as my little production assistant. For the first two years while I filmed cooking episodes by myself in my apartment, Max was there keeping me company.

I never really made him the focus of any of my content, but if you have been following me for a while, you have seen him creeping around the background, just being my little shadow. He never liked being too far from me.

I honestly don't remember life without him. So much of my time over the last 15 years has been dedicated to taking care of him. My body naturally wakes up every day at 6:30 am to take him out to pee, and this morning was no different. The moment I woke up, the realization hit me, and I just laid there crying.

The last few months, he required round-the-clock attention, and I was there to give it. I loved him more than anything, and he needed me more than ever. Not having to take care of him anymore is going to take some getting used to.

I always try to find the bright side in a bad situation, and this experience is no different. Losing Max has reminded me of how short life is and how important it is to appreciate the time you have with the people and the anima